Wednesday, August 31, 2011

I'm Back...

So, I have been MIA for over a year now, and I am finally ready to start posting again.  

This past year has been wonderful, difficult, and quite a learning experience.

I over-extended myself beyond what I was capable of and it came back to bite me.  But, I have learned to prioritize and also endure harsh criticism.  I feel like I have grown.

There are so many lessons I am meant to learn and the funny thing is not even knowing I need to learn them.  I am amazed when a situation arises out of obscurity, completely blindsides me, causes heartbreak, and then miraculously teaches me.  My eyes have been opened to so much.  I feel that I can see more clearly and I am more open to empathy. 

I have lost faith and trust in people that I thought I couldn't live without, and I survived.  Almost unbearable pain, sleepless nights crying alone in the dark, hopelessness, loneliness, and grief, gave way to a new kind of happiness.  I learned to turn inward, trust my husband and kids more.  I finally learned that my little family is enough.  And, they are glorious.  And I am grateful.

Starting this blog again, I feel like a new person.  I don't know how it will turn out, but it will be real.  Take me as I am.